STORY
Recorded and released to cassette in 1997.
Remastered and re-released in 2022.
Parasomnias was recorded by Wilfred Landa, one of the first of Elly's friends to own a digital multitrack recorder. Many days were spent recording these songs, many lessons were learnt and much fun was had. Elly felt completely free to play around with all the possibilities the multitrack offered. The result are songs that have layered meanings, unexpected sounds and heartfelt emotion. All songs sprouted from a twenty year old's brain with themes like jaleousy and psychedelic experiences.
What are parasomnias? Parasomnias are disruptive sleep-related disorders. Someone suffering from this disorder might have abnormal movements, talks, expresses emotions or does unusual things. They are really asleep, although their bed partner might think they're awake. Examples include sleep terrors, sleepwalking, nightmare disorder, sleep-related eating disorder and sleep paralysis.
Parasomnias (remastered)
TRACKLISTING
- Bloody Whore
- Favourite Star
- Oh Dear
- Graveyard
- Listen To Your Radio
- Grey Dove
- Not Right Now OK
- Monster Get To Me
- Cha Cha
- Being Welcome
- My Sisters
- Dark Chicken Clown Soup
CREDITS
Parasomnias was written by Elly Kellner.
Elly Kellner – Acoustic guitar, Bass guitar, Vocals, Percussion.
Wilfred Landa – Drums, Percussion, Handclaps.
Fons van Loenhout – Bass guitar on Favourite Star.
Jamaris Gijzen – Handclaps on Oh Dear.
Original recordings & mix by Wilfred Landa in his homestudio in 1997.
Produced by Elly Kellner with the kind assistance of Wilfred Landa.
Edited, remixed and remastered by Elly Kellner in 2022.
Cover photo by John Posthumus.
Cover design by Elly Kellner.
LYRICS
Bloody Whore
The light you bring is unsure
It flickers as I bow and breathe
You bring your flows to my door
I ignore, ignore, ignore, ignore, ignore, ignore, ignore,
I'm no bloody whore
Favourite Star
I'm having a bad time
I don't know where these words came from
Tuning me up to a higher sensation, a smile
Minor is fine, minor is fine by me dear
Hey dear, I'm over here
I'm over here, I'm over here
This tasted roasted steak I have for you
Your favourite sauces on top and along the side
My pride and joy oh you are, you are
You are my favourite star
Why try to bother
Your light makes me feel so unsure
You bring all the flows and lay them in the topdrawer
I could just ignore, ignore, ignore the whore
Man I see you're bored, you're really bored
You are really bored, you are really bored
This tasted roasted steak I have for you
Your favourite sauces on top and along the side
My pride and joy oh you are, you are
You are my favourite star
Oh Dear
Oh dear, you got yourself another hand to hold
Oh dear, your head surely wasn't clear that evening
Oh dear, you should've told her what to say that day
Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear, oh dear
Oh dear, I would've liked for you to come on over
Oh dear, I would've liked to see that smile
Oh dear, you couldn't hold on to my strong arms
Lost all your charms, oh dear, oh dear
Oh dear, wouldn't let you in, wouldn't let you in now
Hands touch and make me itch, I don't really like it a bit
So I will not let you in, I will not let you in now
Eyes burn, will they make me turn around
And feel like shit
Graveyard
I bring you your flowers
Flowers for the dead
Catch your sacred hours
Eat the white bread
Truth is I could never hate
Bring a serenade
I pour my life into
All the cups of truth
She holds it, caresses it, loves it, strokes it, breaks it
Higher I want, higher I go, I don’t need to know
Truth is I could never hate
Bring a serenade
I pour my life into
All the cups of truth
She holds it, caresses it, loves it, strokes it, breaks it
Higher I want, higher I go, I don’t need to know
I don’t need to know
I don’t need to know
I don’t need to know
Which way you go
When you leave me
Listen To Your Radio
THE BREAD
Share the bread, he said…..as he swallowed
Quickly now, so that no-one can see
Share the bread, and hand it over
He will ask none to keep me
And the faces fade, and melt
MOODY WOOD
The night is dark and you are walking
Your head it rests on my head
The wood is more, you never thought it’d be
Your own resource for energy
Don’t you steal my energy
You’ve got more chances to feel good
Don’t take on this part of me
You’ve got so much more
CONSENSUS
I see something moving, in the corner of my eye
You say alright now, now you don’t have to be frightened
I’ve got parasomnias, these things in my head
I’ve got parasomnias, it’s in my head
Last night you meant to tell me
That the stars in the sky don’t shine anymore for you
But it’s alright, I, never have to count your filthy ways again
We’ve reached this consensus, oh we agree, really
We’ve reached this consensus, and you can go freely
Grey Dove
This is the curl I make
This is what my brain did
All the links we try
We wanna kill the fly
I wonder how it tasted
Another grey dove wasted
Feathers, bones on the floor
Just to pay your one and only whore
You got blood on your hands
Oh who said you were an innocent man
Yeah, you wanna be friends
But I better stay here if I can
When I look at you, you seem a gentle man
You take me out for a walk when you can
To the beach, under the full moon
You made me dig in the sand with a spoon
I know you got blood on your hands
Tell me who's burried here beneath this sand
I bring up the body if I can
Before you put me away as well
In the diningroom there was a pond full of with fishes
And we went looking at it between different dishes
You made me a look a little closer, so I frowned
As you pushed my head in so I could drown
How can you hold a dead body in your hands
Be sure I'm really dead before you bury me man
Maybe, maybe dear friend
You'll go down with me as well
Not Right Now OK
Are you taking me seriously
When I’m talking about the little one
You don’t amaze me no more
In picture books I’d see them smiling
But the spit is drawling down
They show dishonesty, they know dishonesty
I know dishonesty too
But I guess it doesn’t fit me
I know it doesn’t fit me
Oh turn your head you filthy one, you’re the slim one, he called me up and tells me he’s in love with the smallest, smallest, skinny one. No-one should ever care, but you’re still standing there, and hey 'Skinny is in' so she’s in, and I’m out here wondering what the fuck I’m all about.
Wouldn’t be hanging on to these strings
If I could be happy like
We’re all happy forever, we’re all happy forever
Just get out of here
These things seem clearer when they come around
And hold my mirrors up
I would not know what to do without my little one, bless ya
You know who you are, you wear those stars
Because I gave ‘m to you
And that’s how I feel and nothing is real
As long as I’m drifting
God how this made me sick before
Just let me ignore
Right now I don’t seem to understand
Why people even care to try
Right now I’m feeling bad, right now I’m feeling sad
Right now I’m feeling mad, right now I’m feeling
Right now I’m feeling, right now I’m feeling.
We’re all happy forever, we’re all happy forever
Just not right now, just not right now ok
Not right now, not right now, not right now ok
Monster Get To Me
Are you under me, under me
Hey you get to me, get to me
Are you satisfied with my time
Oh you get to me, get to me
Monster in my elevator
With his greasy teeth
Plays hard just to get higher
Or to crawl underneath
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Are you close to me, close to me
What can I be
Honeybee, why don't you commit your crime
You'll come around and I'll be fine
Monster in my elevator
(Never) brush your teeth
You look so angry but you're the sweetest thing
You keep it hidden underneath
Can I hold you, can I, can I
Am I true, you'd want to know, you want to know
There are things you won't see
And there are things kept me
And there are feelings inside the darkest sea
And there are apples on an apple tree
So what is hidden inside
What is hidden inside me
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Will you ever come to know
Yeah, will you ever come to know
Yeah, I really don't know
Yeah, you really don't know
Cha Cha
Let me come to her
Let me come to her
Let me come to her
One, two, three
This isn't me, isn't me
One, two, three
Anyone can see
It is she, it is she now talking
I'm not aware of things I do
I turn my back and forget you were ever there
I wonder why all the guys stand in a row as I walk by
I'm not doing anything on purpose
I wiggle when I walk
I pant when I talk
I cannot keep my legs together
But I'm not doing it on purpose
I wiggle when I walk
I pant when I talk
I cannot keep my legs together
But I'm not doing it on purpose
I can't tell if you're curious
But I'll help you along
And nothing is wrong
And you are so welcome
Come on inside
Would you like to see
The color of my bra
It really fits me
I can dance the cha cha
On a chair in front of you
I'm not doing anything on purpose
I wiggle when I walk
I pant when I talk
I cannot keep my legs together
But I'm not doing this on purpose
I wiggle when I walk
I pant when I talk
I cannot keep my legs together
But I'm not doing it on purpose
I'm not doing anything on purpose
Being Welcome
Bring me someone who doesn’t want to be loved
Bring me someone who wants to be alone
Introduce them to me and I’ll believe it when I see it
But untill then, I’ll just believe these feelings in me
I wanna be loved by you
I wanna be welcome here
I wanna make fun together
And just believe in how I feel
When I’m with you
When I’m with you
My Sisters
Blood connects us together, it teases me every night
You’re standing in the dark, because I don’t know what you’re like
(But it’s gonna be) alright, alright, alright… I’m gonna find you
Alright, alright… we’re gonna be together
All of us, all of us, we all should know where we come from
So I’ll try and tell you in a song
Your mother’s beautiful, she makes the world turn around
And we love you, although we haven’t met just yet
And we think of you… both
Oh this teases me, because I’d like to see you soon
So I can say: These are my sisters, these are my sisters
Here are my sisters and can you show me
Do I look like you do
Maybe I do
Dark Chicken Clown Soup
Oh the path I want to take
The curl I make, you cannot follow
And you and I aren't happening
I dived into all the waters
All the hands they brought me back to this
Cool and gentle burst into
I held it down as I went swimming
He said 'Look at the right side
Look at the bright side and then roll over'
Salve I say, you're welcome
When the job is done, roll over to me
And all the clowns they raise their heads
And show their faces
A smile's enough for a day
Can't step away
The path I want to take
You cannot follow me
You cannot follow me
To where I need to be
It will rain along the way
I want to play, so you cannot follow
And you and I aren't happening
We need more of this fluid
We need more of this pain
We need more things to put in
We need more time to play
And what he said was on the right side
On the bright side of my dark chamber
Come in, come in, my chicken's boiling
And we still need someone to fit in
Fit in
Put the clowns in the right spot
In the boiling pot until they're cooked
I put pepper and salt on their heads so bald
And I leave all the doors open
So you can smell when they taste like hell
You'll hear us click our tongues
You and I aren't happening
You and I aren't happening