Keshri Transition
TRACKLISTING
-
This Hate
- Oh How I've Been
- He Grows Dying Flowers
-
Don't Wanna Cry Today
-
Emperor
- Truth Is Mine
- All You Need On Your Travels
- Naked
- Legs & Toes
- Tripping
- New To Mankind
- It Was You, Yourself
- I Am Your Coca-Cola Light
- I'm Gone Now
- Shiny Bottle*
THE STORY
Released 2001
Between 1999 and 2003 Elly formed an Acoustic-Noise-Duo Keshri with multi-instrumentalist Andra Veraart. Among other gigs they were support-act for The Gathering and played at Breda Barst Festival. Uptil 2011 Elly has formed bands under the name Keshri, everytime with different bandmembers. This early version of 'Keshri' stopped due to Elly Kellner moving country in 2003.
In 2001 Andra and Elly released a full-length album, the Keshri Transition. They recorded 11 acoustic guitar filled songs; youthful visions about odd dreams, missing our friends, crossed boundaries and being high without taking drugs. A bonus to the album are three homerecorded songs. The album concludes with Shiny Bottle, produced by Angelo Huige, challenging Elly to add vocals and lyrics to this triphop track.
This CD is available in the Special Collectors Bundle
CREDITS
All songs and lyrics written by Elly Kellner.
Elly Kellner – Acoustic guitar, Vocals.
Andra Veraart – Acoustic guitar, Bass guitar, Beats.
Tracks 1-11 recorded & mixed by John v/d Putte at CKB Studio, March 2001.
Tracks 12-14 recorded by Elly Kellner in her home studio, 1999/2000.
Track 15* written and recorded by Angelo Huige, 1998, lyrics by Elly Kellner.
All tracks mastered by Rutger Verberkmoes.
Cover photography by John Posthumus. Railroad photo by Julie Egers. Illustrations by Elly Kellner. Stills and design by Andra Veraart & Elly Kellner.
LYRICS
This Hate
You're thinking I'll listen
You're thinking you're wise
You're thinking I'll kneel down
And won't dare to look in your eyes
You're thinking I am small
You're thinking I will fall
You're thinking I'll let you
Go on, go on, go on
But I remember faces
So you better be aware
You better be prepared
For the hate I have
Cause it'll lead it's own life
And now baby can I call you
A baby if I want
You're a big baby getting angry
When I say I can't
Oh these things make it happen
Your kind makes it worse
Oh God, turn me into a witch
Give me the power to curse
All your hands and filthy fingers
All your guns, your slily moans
You better think of what you're saying
You better mind that tone
This hate, it will lead it's own life
Oh How I've Been
Oh how I've been running last night
How I've been flying last night
How I've been enjoying the ride
With that big black dog, dirty smiling glace
A big hairy dog with a big black face
And the way it looked sure wasn't good that day
You dog, you didn't have anything real to say
Oh how I've been moving last night
How I been airskating last night
How I been smiling, 'cause it worked good for me
There was a guy, strong tall, not ugly at all
With big hands and pants too big for his legs
Long tall, won't you fall for a girlie heart small
I dribble, dribble as I'm flying high
I figure the figure, in mind I feel
In mind it seems real
But are you who I think you are
I figure the figure, in mind I feel
In mind it seems real
But are you who I think you are
He Grows Dying Flowers
Open, open, open the gateway
Open, open, open your gateway
Bare me, I carry you in my heart
I cherish you like a flower
So open, open, open your gateway
Open, open, open your gateway
Now what to do with men like that
How I liked it when we just met
What to do with the pity I feel
What you are isn't real
Oh how you're faking it
Open, open, open the gateway
Open, open, open your gateway
Bare me, I carry you in my heart
I cherish you like a flower
(He grows dying flowers)
(He grows dying flowers)
Hold me gently, maybe I will grow
Gently swaying in the undertow
Don't order me to open up
Do that and you will break my cup
I thought he'd be good
I thought he'd be kind
I thought he was a tender man
But he... started pushing again
Open, open, open the gateway
(I'll keep it locked up)
Open, open, open the gateway
(I'll keep it shut)
Bare me, I carry you in my heart
(Should I believe it?)
I cherish you like a flower
(A dying) flowerwhore
Don't Wanna Cry Today
Coldness in conversations
How the anger takes it's place
I could hit you in the face
But it wouldn't get us anywhere
Sadness in conversations
How the feelings drift along
I could say that you're so wrong
But it wouldn't get us anywhere
And how I'd like to scream
“Oh what on earth are you doing?
What the hell are you trying to say?”
But the words take the freeze
'cause I want to please my worried head
Hey, I don't wanna cry today
Wind brings the leafs to the ground
Brings us the love for all sounds
Wind brings the cold to our bones
But we should never feel alone
And still we'll do our crying alone
Here on our high, high throne
It is lovely to cry and moan, on our own
And how I'd like to slap you right in the face
When you say it wasn't all a waste
But my mind takes the freeze
'cause I want to please my weary head
And hey, I don't wanna cry today
Emperor
On the emperors face was a dirty grin
The grin of sin, the laughter of loudness
Silence bearable no longer
Fear made hims tronger
But to an angry lad
It could've all been much easier
It could've been silent and sweet and warm as well
But he couldn't resist no longer
What made him stronger
I bet he can't tell
Because we're looking at a special force
The jig of life, the life in us
We're looking at this strange appearance
In you and me it's easy to see
When we go down to the ground
Just before we hit it we go up again and
Man... I wish I could put the anger aside
And the emperors face was torn in two
He fit the show, received the anger
From his eyes a wise tale to tell
From heaven, hell and back again
What scared him most made him go on
What didn't kill had made him strong
I wonder why we're too blind to see
The same gift was given to you and me
We're looking at a special force
The jig of life, the life in us
We're looking at this strange appearance
In you and me it's easy to see
When we go down to the ground
Just before we hit it we go up again and
Man... I wish I could put the anger aside
Truth Is Mine
You turn me to anger, you turn me to hate
You turn me to sorrow, it is so late
I should go to bed now, I should be a sleep
I should be dreaming, but I weep
You is I... I is you...
I make myself feel like a fool
You is I... I is you...
I can't blame myself so I'm blaming you
You turn me to knowledge, you turn me around
You turn to wisdom, to see what I've found
Hey I should be honest, I should to myself
And I should be happy with all that I have
This is supposed to be a clear moment
This is the moment and a light will have to shine
Right up my face, I know it
Truth it is mine
Will I be able to know this for real
That I'm control of the way that I feel
I wanna make sure, it's all understood
If I'm in control, I just wanna feel good
This is supposed to be a clear moment
This is the moment and a light will have to shine
Right up my face, yeah I know it
Truth it is mine
Truth it is mine, mine, mine
Truth it is mine
All You Need On Your Travels
Do you see how I like you
Do you see how it's real
And when you're no longer here
Here for me to touch and feel
It seems you could be dead and gone
'though I know you're not
But I can't seem to picture you
When a picture's all I've got
But how I'll miss to simply know that
You aren't here but you're not far
How I'll miss to know exactly
About nice things you do and where you are
I'll have to look at the sun in the sky
And remember just before it is gone
You'll be standing somewhere else, all by yourself
Enjoying another ray of the same sun
But how I'll miss to simply know that
You aren't here but you're not far
How I'll miss to know exactly
About nice things you do and where you are
Oh it's just because I love you
It's just because it's real
And although you're no longer here
Here for me to touch and feel
Your face it pops up anytime
And this will always be
A fact standing by itsself
I will carry you with me
I will carry you with me
I will carry you with me
Naked
Naked this body
Look down and smile
It is mine, it is mine
And it's alright
We're all naked, these bodies
Look down at yourselves
This is your, it is yours
And it's alright
Bodies shapes, shapes all around me
Floating disguises, I will peel of the skin
Bodies slaves of shyness and shame
You won't carry the name of what you are
You are naked before me
You are naked, it's alright
This is how you first came here
This is how I will hold you tonight
Body and mind, I like to hold it in my hand
Caress the time we share, spend together
Stay with me, stay with me
Stay with me, stay with me
Please stay, please stay
Bodies shapes, shapes all around me
Floating disguises, I will peel of the skin
Bodies slaves of shyness and shame
Won't carry the name of what you are
Of what you are, of what you are
Of what you are, of what you are
Of what you are, of what you are
Of what you are, of what you are
Legs & Toes
Wasn't small last night
I didn't touch that night
But we were all naked
Would he whistle if I wasn't dressed
Would he whistle if I was possessed
If I wasn't naked
As I reach out for the legs and toes
I know how it often goes
Tell me am I mistaken
And give it, give it, give it everything you got
It ain't no pleasure until that man is shot
I'll shoot you if you're naked
As I reach out for the legs and toes
I know how it often goes
Tell me am I mistaken
And give it, give it, give it everything you got
It ain't no pleasure until that man is shot
I'll shoot you if you're naked
Tripping
With nothing in my blood I wonder
How can it be that I feel
Like a slow locomotive
I drank the water to flow with
The stream of the evening
The flow of things
How can it be, that I
How can it be, that I
How can it be, that I
Am tripping
I am tripping
A natural high is what I, I've got
And it won't always be soothing me
Like in a slow-motion picture
I thought of how I could ditch her
She's the stream of the evening
The flow tof things
How can it be, that I
How can it be, that I
How can it be, that I
Am tripping
You see I am tripping
Tripping... on nothing
Voices and choices, I had to make on my way
Just to be here today with everything to say
I'm like a siren that's screaming
Remind me of the dreaming
Follow the stream of the evening
The flow of things
How can it be, that I
How can it be, that I
How can it be, that I
Am tripping
I am tripping
On nothing
New To Mankind
Like a snail, we were slippery and wet
We were finding our way in the mud and the dirt
We've been crawling around for ten years
Lost a few tears, still feeling the fears
I called us crazy, 'cause I thought we were
I said we were pirates, waiting to learn
If we had our way, would we be here today
Flying like birds, new to mankind
Evolving from pain, here we are again
A species strong, try to go on
Beauty is growing inside
Within the ugly there's beauty we hide
I called us crazy, 'cause I thought we were
I said we were pirates, waiting to learn
If we had our way, would we be here today
Flying like birds, new to mankind we are
The birds they seem so careless, floating up high
Do they have the wisdom, they let it all go by
You know you did the right thing
It was a decision hard to take
But don't worry about it, it's finished, it's done
You know, you could let it blow over
Just let it pass, like a cloud in the blue sky
Let it go, let it go by
It Was You, Yourself
You've wondered long, you've wondered so
You've hung around wanting more
You didn't see that it was in your hands
The power to realise your plans
What made you open your eyes to see
That you can achieve what you believe
What showed you love's what life's about
What made you decide to come on out
Some may say it was angels
Some may say it was a higher intelligence
Some may say it was hare hare Krshna
Some may say that it was God
Some may say that it was Budha
Some may say it was a bright light
But I think tonight there was just one that had the might
It was you, yourself
You've looked and stared but you could not see
You've wondered who you were supposed to be
You didn't have to go too far
To become the person you already are
What made you open your eyes to see
That you can achieve what you believe
What showed you love's what life's about
What made you decide to come on out
Some may say it was angels
Some may say it was a higher intelligence
Some may say it was hare hare Krshna
Some may say that it was God
Some may say that it was Budha
Some may say it was a bright light
But I think tonight there was just one that had the might
It was you, yourself
I Am Your Coca-Cola Light
In your bed, you toss and turn
And think about, what you deserve
You wake up, you take a shower
You watch TV, for about an hour
You go outside, look at the trees
Meet a friend, but you, you think of me
You have lunch, you have supper
But you can’t loose, thoughts in your upper
You won’t drink coffee, you won’t drink tea
You won’t drink water, you, you just want me
I am what you need, I will help you to succeed
All through the day and through the night
I am….I am….
Your Coca Cola….
Coca Cola…
Light
I'm Gone Now
To the highest store, to the little times
To the big flee, to the - sky
I’m going, I’m gone now
I’m going, I’m gone now
To the hairy part, to the finest feeling
To the clean spot, to the - deep
I’m going, I’m gone now
I’m going, I’m gone now
You are there I see,
How could it be possible you’d be
The most important person dying
You are there and I am here, but I’m gone now
Tell me what you want of you chest,
Be my guest
I’ll hear it but I won’t understand
I’m on my way today, I am here, but I’m gone now
And monkeys fill their heads with beer
I got a lot, a lot, a lot, of that here
But I’m going, I’m gone now. I’m going, I’m gone now
Don’t make me swallow the poison of life
I had that, I think I had two (too)
But I’m going, I’m gone now
I’m going, I’m gone now
Shiny Bottle
Oh, it’s shining and you know it
It’s awake, but not well
It’s shining and you know it
But you know I couldn’t tell
Thought I would not see no difference
Thought I’d never have the heart
Shiny, shiny bottle, you know I got it
Shiny, shiny bottle, you know I got it
This won’t be the deal friend
We won’t do it this way
This won’t be allowed friend
I’m not here to play
And there are men of no avail
And men of no restrain
There are men with whom you’ll lose yourself
And men, well you can gain
A little bit what’s in that bottle
What’s shining to come out
I know what it is babes
But I’m not allowed to tell you