Elly Kellner - Keshri Transition Album Cover Front 2001

Keshri Transition

TRACKLISTING

  1. This Hate
  2. Oh How I've Been
  3. He Grows Dying Flowers
  4. Don't Wanna Cry Today
  5. Emperor
  6. Truth Is Mine
  7. All You Need On Your Travels
  8. Naked
  9. Legs & Toes
  10. Tripping
  11. New To Mankind
  12. It Was You, Yourself
  13. I Am Your Coca-Cola Light
  14. I'm Gone Now
  15. Shiny Bottle*

THE STORY

Released 2001

Between 1999 and 2003 Elly formed an Acoustic-Noise-Duo Keshri with multi-instrumentalist Andra Veraart. Among other gigs they were support-act for The Gathering and played at Breda Barst Festival. Uptil 2011 Elly has formed bands under the name Keshri, everytime with different bandmembers. This early version of 'Keshri' stopped due to Elly Kellner moving country in 2003.

 

In 2001 Andra and Elly released a full-length album, the Keshri Transition. They recorded 11 acoustic guitar filled songs; youthful visions about odd dreams, missing our friends, crossed boundaries and being high without taking drugs. A bonus to the album are three homerecorded songs. The album concludes with Shiny Bottle, produced by Angelo Huige, challenging Elly to add vocals and lyrics to this triphop track.

 

This CD is available in the Special Collectors Bundle

CREDITS

All songs and lyrics written by Elly Kellner.

Elly Kellner – Acoustic guitar, Vocals.

Andra Veraart – Acoustic guitar, Bass guitar, Beats.

 

Tracks 1-11 recorded & mixed by John v/d Putte at CKB Studio, March 2001.

Tracks 12-14 recorded by Elly Kellner in her home studio, 1999/2000.

Track 15* written and recorded by Angelo Huige, 1998, lyrics by Elly Kellner.

All tracks mastered by Rutger Verberkmoes.

 

Cover photography by John Posthumus. Railroad photo by Julie Egers. Illustrations by Elly Kellner. Stills and design by Andra Veraart & Elly Kellner.

LYRICS

This Hate

You're thinking I'll listen

You're thinking you're wise

You're thinking I'll kneel down

And won't dare to look in your eyes

 

You're thinking I am small

You're thinking I will fall

You're thinking I'll let you

Go on, go on, go on

 

But I remember faces

So you better be aware

You better be prepared

For the hate I have

Cause it'll lead it's own life

 

And now baby can I call you

A baby if I want

You're a big baby getting angry

When I say I can't

 

Oh these things make it happen

Your kind makes it worse

Oh God, turn me into a witch

Give me the power to curse

 

All your hands and filthy fingers

All your guns, your slily moans

You better think of what you're saying

You better mind that tone

This hate, it will lead it's own life

Oh How I've Been

Oh how I've been running last night

How I've been flying last night

How I've been enjoying the ride

 

With that big black dog, dirty smiling glace

A big hairy dog with a big black face

And the way it looked sure wasn't good that day

You dog, you didn't have anything real to say

 

Oh how I've been moving last night

How I been airskating last night

How I been smiling, 'cause it worked good for me

 

There was a guy, strong tall, not ugly at all

With big hands and pants too big for his legs

Long tall, won't you fall for a girlie heart small

I dribble, dribble as I'm flying high

 

I figure the figure, in mind I feel

In mind it seems real

But are you who I think you are

 

I figure the figure, in mind I feel

In mind it seems real

But are you who I think you are

He Grows Dying Flowers

Open, open, open the gateway

Open, open, open your gateway

Bare me, I carry you in my heart

I cherish you like a flower

So open, open, open your gateway

Open, open, open your gateway

 

Now what to do with men like that

How I liked it when we just met

What to do with the pity I feel

What you are isn't real

Oh how you're faking it

 

Open, open, open the gateway

Open, open, open your gateway

Bare me, I carry you in my heart

I cherish you like a flower

 

(He grows dying flowers)

(He grows dying flowers)

 

Hold me gently, maybe I will grow

Gently swaying in the undertow

Don't order me to open up

Do that and you will break my cup

 

I thought he'd be good

I thought he'd be kind

I thought he was a tender man

But he... started pushing again

 

Open, open, open the gateway

(I'll keep it locked up)

Open, open, open the gateway

(I'll keep it shut)

Bare me, I carry you in my heart

(Should I believe it?)

I cherish you like a flower

 

(A dying) flowerwhore

Don't Wanna Cry Today

Coldness in conversations

How the anger takes it's place

I could hit you in the face

But it wouldn't get us anywhere

 

Sadness in conversations

How the feelings drift along

I could say that you're so wrong

But it wouldn't get us anywhere

 

And how I'd like to scream

“Oh what on earth are you doing?

What the hell are you trying to say?”

But the words take the freeze

'cause I want to please my worried head

Hey, I don't wanna cry today

 

Wind brings the leafs to the ground

Brings us the love for all sounds

Wind brings the cold to our bones

But we should never feel alone

 

And still we'll do our crying alone

Here on our high, high throne

It is lovely to cry and moan, on our own

 

And how I'd like to slap you right in the face

When you say it wasn't all a waste

But my mind takes the freeze

'cause I want to please my weary head

And hey, I don't wanna cry today

Emperor

On the emperors face was a dirty grin

The grin of sin, the laughter of loudness

Silence bearable no longer

Fear made hims tronger

 

But to an angry lad

It could've all been much easier

It could've been silent and sweet and warm as well

But he couldn't resist no longer

What made him stronger

I bet he can't tell

 

Because we're looking at a special force

The jig of life, the life in us

We're looking at this strange appearance

In you and me it's easy to see

When we go down to the ground

Just before we hit it we go up again and

Man... I wish I could put the anger aside

 

And the emperors face was torn in two

He fit the show, received the anger

From his eyes a wise tale to tell

From heaven, hell and back again

 

What scared him most made him go on

What didn't kill had made him strong

I wonder why we're too blind to see

The same gift was given to you and me

 

We're looking at a special force

The jig of life, the life in us

We're looking at this strange appearance

In you and me it's easy to see

When we go down to the ground

Just before we hit it we go up again and

Man... I wish I could put the anger aside

Truth Is Mine

You turn me to anger, you turn me to hate

You turn me to sorrow, it is so late

I should go to bed now, I should be a sleep

I should be dreaming, but I weep

 

You is I... I is you...

I make myself feel like a fool

You is I... I is you...

I can't blame myself so I'm blaming you

 

You turn me to knowledge, you turn me around

You turn to wisdom, to see what I've found

Hey I should be honest, I should to myself

And I should be happy with all that I have

 

This is supposed to be a clear moment

This is the moment and a light will have to shine

Right up my face, I know it

Truth it is mine

 

Will I be able to know this for real

That I'm control of the way that I feel

I wanna make sure, it's all understood

If I'm in control, I just wanna feel good

 

This is supposed to be a clear moment

This is the moment and a light will have to shine

Right up my face, yeah I know it

Truth it is mine

Truth it is mine, mine, mine

Truth it is mine

All You Need On Your Travels

Do you see how I like you

Do you see how it's real

And when you're no longer here

Here for me to touch and feel

It seems you could be dead and gone

'though I know you're not

But I can't seem to picture you

When a picture's all I've got

 

But how I'll miss to simply know that

You aren't here but you're not far

How I'll miss to know exactly

About nice things you do and where you are

 

I'll have to look at the sun in the sky

And remember just before it is gone

You'll be standing somewhere else, all by yourself

Enjoying another ray of the same sun

 

But how I'll miss to simply know that

You aren't here but you're not far

How I'll miss to know exactly

About nice things you do and where you are

 

Oh it's just because I love you

It's just because it's real

And although you're no longer here

Here for me to touch and feel

Your face it pops up anytime

And this will always be

A fact standing by itsself

I will carry you with me

I will carry you with me

I will carry you with me

Naked

Naked this body

Look down and smile

It is mine, it is mine

And it's alright

 

We're all naked, these bodies

Look down at yourselves

This is your, it is yours

And it's alright

 

Bodies shapes, shapes all around me

Floating disguises, I will peel of the skin

Bodies slaves of shyness and shame

You won't carry the name of what you are

 

You are naked before me

You are naked, it's alright

This is how you first came here

This is how I will hold you tonight

 

Body and mind, I like to hold it in my hand

Caress the time we share, spend together

Stay with me, stay with me

Stay with me, stay with me

Please stay, please stay

 

Bodies shapes, shapes all around me

Floating disguises, I will peel of the skin

Bodies slaves of shyness and shame

Won't carry the name of what you are

 

Of what you are, of what you are

Of what you are, of what you are

Of what you are, of what you are

Of what you are, of what you are

 

Legs & Toes

Wasn't small last night

I didn't touch that night

But we were all naked

 

Would he whistle if I wasn't dressed

Would he whistle if I was possessed

If I wasn't naked

 

As I reach out for the legs and toes

I know how it often goes

Tell me am I mistaken

 

And give it, give it, give it everything you got

It ain't no pleasure until that man is shot

I'll shoot you if you're naked

 

As I reach out for the legs and toes

I know how it often goes

Tell me am I mistaken

 

And give it, give it, give it everything you got

It ain't no pleasure until that man is shot

I'll shoot you if you're naked

 

Tripping

With nothing in my blood I wonder

How can it be that I feel

Like a slow locomotive

I drank the water to flow with

The stream of the evening

The flow of things

 

How can it be, that I

How can it be, that I

How can it be, that I

Am tripping

I am tripping

 

A natural high is what I, I've got

And it won't always be soothing me

Like in a slow-motion picture

I thought of how I could ditch her

She's the stream of the evening

The flow tof things

 

How can it be, that I

How can it be, that I

How can it be, that I

Am tripping

You see I am tripping

Tripping... on nothing

 

Voices and choices, I had to make on my way

Just to be here today with everything to say

I'm like a siren that's screaming

Remind me of the dreaming

Follow the stream of the evening

The flow of things

 

How can it be, that I

How can it be, that I

How can it be, that I

Am tripping

I am tripping

On nothing

New To Mankind

Like a snail, we were slippery and wet

We were finding our way in the mud and the dirt

We've been crawling around for ten years

Lost a few tears, still feeling the fears

 

I called us crazy, 'cause I thought we were

I said we were pirates, waiting to learn

If we had our way, would we be here today

Flying like birds, new to mankind

 

Evolving from pain, here we are again

A species strong, try to go on

Beauty is growing inside

Within the ugly there's beauty we hide

 

I called us crazy, 'cause I thought we were

I said we were pirates, waiting to learn

If we had our way, would we be here today

Flying like birds, new to mankind we are

 

The birds they seem so careless, floating up high

Do they have the wisdom, they let it all go by

You know you did the right thing

It was a decision hard to take

But don't worry about it, it's finished, it's done

You know, you could let it blow over

Just let it pass, like a cloud in the blue sky

Let it go, let it go by

It Was You, Yourself

You've wondered long, you've wondered so

You've hung around wanting more

You didn't see that it was in your hands

The power to realise your plans

 

What made you open your eyes to see

That you can achieve what you believe

What showed you love's what life's about

What made you decide to come on out


Some may say it was angels
Some may say it was a higher intelligence
Some may say it was hare hare Krshna
Some may say that it was God
Some may say that it was Budha
Some may say it was a bright light
But I think tonight there was just one that had the might
It was you, yourself

 

You've looked and stared but you could not see

You've wondered who you were supposed to be

You didn't have to go too far

To become the person you already are

 

What made you open your eyes to see

That you can achieve what you believe

What showed you love's what life's about

What made you decide to come on out


Some may say it was angels
Some may say it was a higher intelligence
Some may say it was hare hare Krshna
Some may say that it was God
Some may say that it was Budha
Some may say it was a bright light
But I think tonight there was just one that had the might
It was you, yourself

I Am Your Coca-Cola Light

In your bed, you toss and turn

And think about, what you deserve

You wake up, you take a shower

You watch TV, for about an hour

 

You go outside, look at the trees

Meet a friend, but you, you think of me

You have lunch, you have supper

But you can’t loose, thoughts in your upper

 

You won’t drink coffee, you won’t drink tea

You won’t drink water, you, you just want me

 

I am what you need, I will help you to succeed

All through the day and through the night

I am….I am….

Your Coca Cola….

Coca Cola…

Light

I'm Gone Now

To the highest store, to the little times

To the big flee, to the - sky

I’m going, I’m gone now

I’m going, I’m gone now

 

To the hairy part, to the finest feeling

To the clean spot, to the - deep

I’m going, I’m gone now

I’m going, I’m gone now

 

You are there I see,

How could it be possible you’d be

The most important person dying

You are there and I am here, but I’m gone now

 

Tell me what you want of you chest,

Be my guest

I’ll hear it but I won’t understand

I’m on my way today, I am here, but I’m gone now

 

And monkeys fill their heads with beer

I got a lot, a lot, a lot, of that here

But I’m going, I’m gone now. I’m going, I’m gone now

 

Don’t make me swallow the poison of life

I had that,  I think I had two (too)

But I’m going, I’m gone now

I’m going, I’m gone now

 

Shiny Bottle

Oh, it’s shining and you know it

It’s awake, but not well

It’s shining and you know it

But you know I couldn’t tell

 

Thought I would not see no difference

Thought I’d never have the heart

Shiny, shiny bottle, you know I got it

Shiny, shiny bottle, you know I got it

 

This won’t be the deal friend

We won’t do it this way

This won’t be allowed friend

I’m not here to play

 

And there are men of no avail

And men of no restrain

There are men with whom you’ll lose yourself

And men, well you can gain

 

A little bit what’s in that bottle

What’s shining to come out

I know what it is babes

But I’m not allowed to tell you