Lyrics

I Could Have Made a Child (2020)

THE STORY
Between 2012 and 2015 Elly experimented with writing in her mother tongue Dutch. With heavier subjects she digged deep and after all those songs were written she spent some time in troubled waters. Even though she occasionally performed live the inspiration to write new songs disappeared completely. This void stayed on for a couple of years and then 2019 came around and it became a musical and magical year. Becoming a part of Beyond Music was the great instigator.
 
Elly started to write in English again, her first love, again with vulnerability as the main subject for the lyrics. In October 2019 the song Sharp Corners was born and in it she speaks about (self)protection. At the end of that same year she wrote songs about loss and the art of letting go. The soothing I Could Have Made a Child saw its first light on Christmas Day. This song is for anyone whose heart suffers because of childlessness, no matter the story, causes or reasons behind it.
 
The EP concludes with Mountains of Men*, a meditative song that indirectly questions wether we want to follow the well trodden path, leaders who claim to know best or will we listen to our gut and choose the road less traveled?

I Could Have Made a Child

I could have made a child
I have the body for it
I could have made a child
And it would be grown by now
I’ve got the hips, the womb
The loving heart
I could have made a child

I could have made a child
And I could’ve fed it peaches
I could have made a child
And taught it to rise each day
To stay close to its own heart
Find strength in vulnerability
I could have made a child

But all this time I have spent
Making myself a happier person
All this time I have spent
‘Cause I needed more time
For me

I could have made a child
And written songs about it
I could have made a child
And hear how it sings
Could’ve caressed it and blessed it
With all my creativity
Yes, I could have made a child

But all this time I have spent
Making myself a happier person
All this time I have spent
‘Cause I needed more time
For me

I could have made a child

©Elly Kellner

I Will Start Over

The letting go is easy
But only if you’re into that specific sort of thing
Like tidying your junk from your trunk

It can definitely be quite easy
If you’re into really sad goodbyes
Like a tree in the fall, letting go of the leaves

Leave me alone, I will start over
Leave me alone, I will take a new breath
Leave me alone, I will start over
Leave me alone, I will take a new breath

Letting go, sure it’s easy
Particularly if a clean slate gives you thrills
Like an empty counter top on which to chop

Letting go is easy
But only if you’re into the bittersweet
It’s a bit like faith
You can choose whatever you want to believe

Leave me alone, I will start over
Leave me alone, I will take a new breath
Leave me alone, I will start over
Leave me alone, I will take a new breath

©Elly Kellner

Sharp Corners

Oh the corner’s sharp
We don’t want you to
We don’t want you to
Hurt yourself

Oh the monsters are
Pretty big up there
Pretty big up there
They might swallow you

Oh the water’s deep
We don’t want you to
‘Cause you never learned
To swim

Oh the people are
They’re all wearing masks
Wearing masks
You should probably wear yours too

We’ve taken care of you
Held you when no-one would
We’re keeping you safe
We’ve taken care of you
Held you when no-one would
We’re keeping you safe

Oh it’s all too much
And the air’s to heavy
The air’s too heavy
How could you carry that

Oh the sky is dark
It’s all pouring down
Pouring down
And you didn’t bring a coat

We’ve taken care of you
Held you when no-one would
We’re keeping you safe
We’ve taken care of you
Held you when no-one would
We’re keeping you safe

Oh the corner’s sharp
We don’t want you to
We don’t want you to
Hurt yourself

©Elly Kellner

Another Person

Oh friend, what happened
In our heart, what happened
And in our mind, what changed
In our heart, what changed

I got scared there
I got scared there

But how does one lose another person
How does one lose another person

Oh friend, I’ve lost you
I couldn’t find my way back
Too much was about to change
A lot of things got rearranged

And I got scared there
I was scared there

How does one lose another person
How does one lose another person

©Elly Kellner

Mountains of Men

Will you follow me where I go
Will you follow me where I go

This path is so crooked
But it’s truly mine
I came in barefoot
Across the borderline

How I struggled uphill
Mountains of men
Grew into a landslide
Came down again

Came… down again
Came… down again

Will you follow me where I go
Will you follow me where I go
Will you follow me where I go
Will you follow me where I go

©Elly Kellner